The past three weeks (God it feels SO much longer than that) have been a major adjustment in our house. Hubs began 12 hour shifts of 6:30p-6:30a. I suppose on one hand it's nice because he works like 2 on 3 off and now actually gets every other weekend off, but holy crap. I never realized how much those 4 extra hours a day meant to us.
Don't get me wrong, I am thankful as hell that he has this job, but I am struggling big time to juggle the life right now. As you all know, meals missed is a regular thing, but now we don't get a single meal a day together. He is gone before dinner and sleeps through breakfast and lunch. I have made ridiculous use of the crockpot so that there is always something hot ready for him to eat. But just watching him eat something across the kitchen, holding over the sink while we casually chat is ancient history now. God I miss that.
The kids are having a hard time adjusting, too. At least I'm not the only baby ha ha! I open my eyes each day to Mr. Pants hovering over me asking in a really loud funny whisper, "Where's dad?". I guess it is now instinctual for them to start the day knowing if daddy is home or not. If he is, I am left in the dust (lol) and the pitter patter of little feet goes downstairs to jump in the pile of blankets on daddy's bed and wake him up.
I know that as we have surely all experienced, as soon as I get used to this schedule, his next 7 duty days will have flown by and we will be into 6:30a-6:30p!
The baby had a horrible night last night. He was up all night screaming like a banshee. Poor baby, I think it's his top teeth coupled with an upper respiratory nastiness we've been passing around. I was so tired I could barely see straight. Hubs was so sweet and helpful.. he was off last night and at one point I told him I don't know how he does it. I'd be asleep in the squad car by midnight. He smiled and said, "Eh... I'm a professional, ok?!". (mimicking the guy from Ferris Bueller's Day Off)... we chuckled and I felt my spirits rise.
And then the screaming started again! It was rough and I felt defeated, but hubs stayed up with Mr. Baby and me all night helping out. It was so nice not being alone. I made sure to tell him I honestly wouldn't have survived the night without him being here.
Tonight while actually carrying on a nice conversation over the phone, dispatch busted in with a burglary in progress and rattled off the description of the dirtbag. No "goodbye", just click. C'est la vie.
It's the life!